Separated By Miles

I have decided to begin this new blog to notate the time my husband and I spend apart due to a 1 year deployment in Iraq. Damon and I have been married for 11 years and he joined the Army aprrox. 5 years ago. This is his second deployment to Iraq. I am not fond of spending time away from my husband for numerous reasons, however he has chosen this career path and I must be accepting of it. He left over a week ago and it has been nothing but an emotional roller coaster.

The first two or three days, I was unstoppable I was doing great and I wes beginning to believe this deployment was going to be easier than the first deployment. That is where I went wrong, thinking I had it made (LOL). Never tell yourself you are doing well because then the bottom is going to fall out. My husband seemed to be calling me every other day since making it to Kuwait and since this past Wed. I have not heard from him in 5 days, which is aggravating and just leads me into disturbing thought patterns. See I am a very insecure individual naturally so you can just imagine some of the colorful thoughts I can come up with.

As wives/loved ones of soldiers we carry our phones with us at all times in hopes they will call. Since hearing from him last, I have managed to become a blubbering idiot twice this weekend. Luckily I have a wonderful friend and neighbor who has allowed me to vent each time I have an episode. I think she may get fed up with this routine very shortly though...I mean who wants to deal with a spazztastic friend on a daily basis. She did mention in passing that she hopes Damon calls soon, I think she knows with a phone call from him I may get a manic moment and be happier for at least two days, rather than having my little tear fest.

So my intentions of having this blog is to write daily regarding the ups and downs of dealing with my husband being deployed. I am hoping by doing this, my friend may not have to deal with all the tears. I am also hoping it will help me when I next speak with my wonderfully amazing husband, because honestly I don't want to scream and yell at him for not calling me. Which I have been known to do, I am atleast decent enough to admit I can be extremely selfish and demanding at times.

See You All Tomorrow.