Today has been one of those days where I just want to place a pillow over my head and scream until I can't scream any longer! It seems when you get one child healthy, the next child winds up ill. All I can do today is scream at my children. I just want peace and quiet to come. Exhaustion has begun to set in and when I am overly tired I become extremely irritable. Today I was suppose to have my counseling appointment, however since our son was sick last night I had to cancel it. I really need my counseling, it helps me function on a regular basis. I also needed to vent about so many things. Like the fact that my husband was deployed so soon after completing his last deployment. Why, why was his Brigade selected? How do you remain in a marriage when it appears every other year we will be faced with a separation. All I want is my husband here to help me deal with the functioning of our home and the raising of our children.
Being a military wife their are days where you wish you weren't a military wife. Today is one of those days where I just wish my husband was at a regular job and worked normal hours and would come through the door at the end of the day! Don't get me wrong, I truly admire my husbands sacrifice however I often feel as though the sacrifices of our soldiers families are forgotten. Right now I am wondering what life would be like if my husband was just a civilian. I miss my husband and just wish he was able to hold and kiss me right now. I know civilian life has its own complications, often times though I wish I didn't have to deal with the daily fear of knowing my husband is over in Iraq (fighting to remain alive).
I think I need some sleep. Till tomorrow.
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