Pampering Session Needed

I have decided I just want one day to myself without children. Maybe I could go get my hair done and go out to lunch. Having a day to myself sounds so wonderful right now. I suppose I should use my 16 hours of respite care for little man, so I can have a day to myself. It's getting past leaving him at daycare, in all honesty I would rather be able to give him to someone I know and trust. Another week has past and yet it still feels like it is going by so slowly. Honestly were keeping busy and the days seem to pass by quickly enough. I miss my husband and want him to come home safely to our family. Maybe next payday I will take myself out.

Love and Missing my wonderful husband!

Violence in Iraq

Had a good time at church today as well as an amzing time at a Halloween party. I only wish my husband was home to enjoy it with us. He did get to see the children in their halloween costumes today as we were on Skype. I only worry because I found out that their was some extreme violence in Baghdad. I know he is currently safe, I just hate knowing elections are coming up in Iraq and I can only imagine the violence is going to get worse. I would rather he was home with our family!

I love and miss him and continuously pray for his safe return to our family.

Till Next Time!

Throwing My Tantrum

How am I going to manage to get through this deployment. I am tired of taking care of our three children on my own, it is un-nerving to have to listen to the girls fight continuously and Isaac whine or throw tantrums. I don't want to do it anymore, I didn't have these three children by myself and yet I am always having to play a single mother. This has been a rough week, I often wonder if my children will ever appreciate what I do for them. The dance lessons, swim lesson, festivals and other activities we do.

Will my husband ever have the opportunity to see on a first hand basis what I have to go through? With each passing day I become more and more irritable. I mean I am doing things a lot differently this deployment. I am keeping myself and our children very active. Yet I constantly feel as though it is not enough as others are asking me to do things for them as well. Days like these I just want to throw in the towel and run away! Instead I just endure and keep going knowing I have to get through the day and hopefully tomorrow will be different.

Eruption of Anger Possible

Alright so I didn't do much of anything today. I did get the children to the YMCA for their swim lessons and Itty Bitty Sports. However while Isaac was learning to play soccer him and another little boy began to argue back and forth one saying "YES" and the other saying "NO" but then the next thing I saw before I could Isaac to calm down this other little boy slapped my son across the face. I was really angry, because as a parent had my child slapped their child he would have been apologizing but the little boys parents were just laughing about it and just sat him out the remainder of the time. Am I expecting to much as a parent.

I am already having a difficult time keeping my anger in control while my husband is gone but it is to the point where I think I may wind up getting into a physical altercation with someone! I don't believe violence resolves anything, however I honestly feel as though are youth are being raised in a violent and awful enviornment anymore. It is to the point I have even been contemplating home schooling my children.

What do I do with all the anger and irritability I have within me. I have been working out but it doesn't seem to be helping as much as it used to. Any suggestions would be appreciated.

Bear Hug Needed

Today has been a struggle, I had some difficult conversations and then I wound up at the YMCA for shrimps and red's swim lessons without shrimps swim trunks. I felt so awful, I mean he is only three years old and was devastated he couldn't swim. I am thinking it may be best to place some extra swim clothes in the car for shrimp. It's sad because it seems the littlest things seem to bring me down. Right now I could really use a big bear hug from the love of my life (aka My Husband).

Shrimp Misses Daddy

In all honesty I wish my husband was home right now. These past few days have been very difficult. Shrimp seems to be becoming more and more out of control. I know he wants his daddy home, Sunday during church he turned to me and said "I want my daddy." It was so heart breaking and then every evening when he blesses the food, he asks for his daddy to come home. I don't know what to do, he has so many things which keep him close to his daddy. Everyday he is able to see daddy on Skype and then he had a video he watches before going to bed where daddy is reading him a story.
How am I going to get through this next year with my little boy's heart breaking. He also gets very upset when somebody leaves and he isn't able to say the goodbye he wants. I hate seeing my children hurt so much and not be able to relieve their pain. I don't know how much longer I can handle being an Army Wife. My children I find need their daddy.

Till Next Time

Another Week

So it has been another long week, I am really feeling the need to have my husband home. I miss him terribly and wish I had my other half here to help me with our children. Maybe I have taken on to much, I haven't been having much success with blogging daily. I did manage to get some items posted on ebay! Now I only hope I can make some money off these items. It would be nice to be able to start making payments on my loans. I have also been making certain we attend church every week, our children seem to enjoy it. I can only hope they enjoy it as much when they become teenagers.
It is Monday and another week begins of swim lessons, dance lessons and itty bitty sports. Hopefully I will also be able to get some more tasks accomplished as well. I was only able to workout 4 times last week and I really want to get 5 times in this week. I also need to get the bathrooms cleaned! Send off my wonderful husbands care package and hope others will begin sending him stuff as well.
I love and miss my husband so much and can't wait until we are in each others arms again! One more week down and way to many left!

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